Your First Snow
- Carolin Kuhmann
- 16 hours ago
- 2 min read
Dear Sally,
I am having a hard time writing about our times together. It hurts so much. The grief feels like a heavy rock sitting on my chest. It stops me from feeling the pain. It also stops me from feeling you and what we had. I don't want that. So here it goes, with a heavy heart and teary eyes, let's continue your story.
It is November 2018 and you are about to experience your first snow!! It started late at night and came down hard. But no problem for you!! Here are your first snow zoomies:
Yes, you do like snow. While I was freezing my fingers and nose off, you were chilling and enjoying the cold.
I missed seeing your golden fur on the white surface this winter. We had a record-breaking snow year 2026!!
You were having fun with that ball. It is done. I know. You will have many more.
Inside or outside you did light up my days. Who can resist that face??? No one!!
Sorry for doing that to you. I realized in that moment that I will never dress you up. I am not sure if you already were in heat or if I tried the diapers because I knew we had to go through one soon. It did become clear that you will simply be bleeding all over the floor. Fortunately, we did not have carpet.
Can't miss the mandatory selfie!! Goofing around with you was so joyful.
As active as you were, we always relaxed and chilled together afterwards. My love, I miss you!! I met a Goldie the other day. Her name was Rosie. I am sure you told her to say hello. She was the sweetest - just like you. Thanks for sending her my way.
Love,
Carolin
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